Timothy Green has worked for the last ten years as editor of the poetry magazine Rattle. His poems have appeared in Connecticut Review, Florida Review, Mid-American Review, Nimrod, Pearl, Subtropics, and other journals. His book, American Fractal, is available from Red Hen Press. He lives in Los Angeles with his wife and daughter.
We were double-sided tape, she writes,
all adhesive. We were the hollow space
a shell curls around; the wrapping
that is the gift. Like children boiling tea
from pine needles, it wasn’t a thirst
that moved us. You chased a soccer ball
around the world while I chased the world.
We were like your speech—blunt and broken,
only as beautiful as it was meaningless.
No way to say it more simply than that.
As her new husband stirs upstairs
she folds the letter. Tongues the glue.
Poem from Dark Matter
First light through the limbs of the trees. And then
the trees. Each morning the hum of traffic
through the freeway wall. And then the traffic
we’re bottled in. Each thing first betrayed
by the shapes around it. As if shadows held
all our weight. Like the empty space that props
each fiery nest of stars, the smooth circumference
of every heavenly body toward which astronomers
might dream. I’m at the kitchen window, early light.
Reading science for tea leaves. Pluto, it seems,
is far colder than we thought. Even the constant
speed of light is decaying. And look where thoughts
can lead: Somewhere in a lonely future, a man
hears his heart stop beating long before the world
goes black. So slow the rate at which nothing
approaches. Or maybe like an ostrich we’ll outrun
our past. And then our present. And this, my gift
to you, whatever you’ll make of it. The soul, a ship
in a bottle lost at sea. Drops its anchor anyway.
I shimmy out on sandstone and slate rock,
past the soft ledges where the last shrubs
grow. I’ve got my camera, unshuttered and
silent, ready to take back with me whatever
I’ve come here for—sore arms and a sunburn,
blue sky like something new. At the floor
of the canyon far below a stream flows from
nowhere to nothing, from one unseen cavern
to the next. I could think of a fish gazing up
at that quick flash of sky as it passes through
the white froth of the rapids, the silky silver
where the water pools. Oh, I am grey, I could
have him say, personified—moved, even
full of emotion. Oh, my scales are golden-
green—I could give him color just as easily
in the kind God of my imagination before
plunging him back into his comfortable
dark, this eyelet the only opening for miles.
How easy it is to paint epiphany, I think, like
the gaudy sunset now settling above the tree-
line I could call a bruise or a blush, windburn
on a woman’s cheek, though it’s only the
scattering of dust in low light, what one shakes
from a shoe, combs out of stiffened hair.
How easy, too, it would be to slip off this ledge,
to get lost out here, fall asleep on this rock and
let the cold night wake me. I could hold out
on figs and freshwater; I could chew the fibrous
bark off a Joshua tree. I could love the moon
like a mountain lion, stalk shadows, sharpen
sticks. Come morning I’d find the dirt road
and then my car at the end of it. Brush the dust
off my pants. Buckle myself back into habit
with a metal click like the sound of my one hand
clapping for joy—however briefly—at all we
ever wanted: a little darkness to climb out of.
She says that everything is after Hopper.
That posh hotel—you looked about to slap her,
but never did. Sometimes she’d wait at night
in her blue robe, face folded like the note
you didn’t leave crumpled in a coat pocket.
Sometimes she’d stand in broad daylight, naked
before an open window, flesh so pale
and round and full it seemed about to pull
a tide of ruttish men up from the street.
But mostly it’s the red dress. The cut straight,
sleeveless, loose. And her mouth is only lipstick.
She says you never even see her talk,
but just about to talk, about to smile.
She says that every moment is a jail;
this diner is her prison of endless light,
the ceaseless hour always getting late—
yet no one moves. Her cigarette remains
unlit. The busboy doesn’t lift his hands.
You could write a thousand lines, she says,
on all the things she never does or has.
How she seems so sad she might have cried.
How you only see her almost satisfied.